I was going through my draft and I re read what I wrote at that point of time of my erm, unexplainable uncontrollable emotionally wrecked breakdown moment. Now that I read back, I really sound so silly and emo. When I talked to him on the phone. He actually laughed at and made fun of me. lol. But I guess that's his way of cheering me up. =) It's funny how I was actually crying when I was typing this and well, even after when I was "stoning" in bed.


That day has finally come. (ever since the day you first flew off)

Where I wished you were here with me.

That someone whom I can get a humongous hug from and just be able to embrace the love and know that you'll protect me from everything no matter how much it takes. Someone who'll always sayang me and layan me when I want to be manja-ed. The one person whom I can always count on for as long as we live. Who will only want and think of the best for me. The person whom I believe and am certain is willing and will take the first flight home from that place of unpredictable weather immediately if something were to happen to me.

And so, I wish you were beside me to cry away to and let the world go by. Instead of having to result to silent crying.

I love you always and I miss you.
There. I said it. *ooh, big round of applause plskthx*

The little things

It was an extremely long day from uni. Half of my 40 minutes journey was driving in extremely heavy rain accompanied with a bright piercing ray of sunlight. Added with another 15 minutes towards Hartamas.

On Monday early evening, whilst slowing down to a traffic light. I saw something which I had not seen in a really long time. A beauty so colourful and bright that it just has to capture your attention. Feeling prompted, I just looked up and beyond and noticed it.

A rainbow. The moment I saw it, the thought of God and His amazing-ness just flashed by and filled over my already crowded mind pushing aside the busy *brain wrecking* thoughts. And I just had to stop and really thank God for it. I said a small thank You prayer and at the end my spirit just lifted up.

Literally. It's the little everyday things like this (ok, maybe not everyday in terms of a rainbow, but you get what I mean) that really we look beyond and let it just pass by. We tend to get so caught up with the big things that we don't realize the importance or necessity of the smaller things.

Even the slightest sight/thought/words can really make a difference. Imagine what the effect would be, be it building or destroying. Therefore, always, and I repeat, always guard your thoughts and words and actions.

On a side note.
Small things could simply mean being thankful to God, just having small conversations with Him. Daily quite time with Him. Listening to Him.
Whereas, big things could be the problems, where we focus so much on it that we seek Him for solutions. To whine and start blaming around. Crying to God as if looking for pity.

Sometimes, we need to focus on the small things that'll help us understand the big picture.

"I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth."

Genesis 9:13

Edit : Now that I think back. I must say that it was one of the most complete arched rainbow with very distinct colours I've ever seen. Making that short moment all the more special =)