Nottingham has been great so far. So was London and Birmingham and a few other places =)

just a quick update to everyone saying that I've finally moved into my permanent accommodation bout for a week already and have been reallly busy with registrations and been going out quite a bit also :P

and class officially starts this monday, i.e. tomorrow =)

Just watch out for this site soon i'll be back with more =)


just to show you a quick peek of how big my uni can be.


If you thought that this was part of the town or city. you're only half right. It's actually part of my uni. hahahahaha it's like the whole main campus itself is like a city in another city itself but isn't ;)

walking from one end to another would be killing. so, busses it is that we take to get from one building to another. =)


Mixture of modern and old style traditional buildings

if you can see, that's the really huge lake at the main campus. it's like HUGE lah. haha probably the size of mid valley. not including gardens i think :P


as city looking at it is, it's really more country style like and this two pics below are one eighth of my business school campus =) the other huge lake with the ducks


(p/s : Yes, I had a duck fascination over there :P)

and we've 3 main campus in total which are bout between 15-45 mins, by BUS mind you, depending on which ones. not including the medical school/hospital and some others =)


till I next see you all
God bless

Scored another 1 point for herself in two encounters. Boy am I getting good in this. haha :P

anyways, I know there has been once again another hiatus of me from the blogging scene which i'm sure most of you are extremely aware of.

Life's been going on rather well I must say.

UPDATE: (finally making a public announcement)
Your's truly is confirmed leaving for the UK for two years if you hadn't already heard the news. haha in 13 days. I'm so gonna miss A LOT of things and persons.

How can you have blind faith in something for which there is not a scrap of evidence.

The answer is, you can't!

If you could prove it, it wouldn't be faith

You can only have faith in what you don't know.

And that, my friends, is what faith is

Okay. so the weeks been terrifying.

For the past two weeks, I've been frantically logging in to my Uni mail over and over again to check on updates bout results. Couldn't wait at all, so much so that few friends and I were just so frustrated with the wait and all that we practically wished the results were out then.

BUT,

Results have officially been released. The moment I received the email telling us about the time and date its released I started to panic. I've yet to go collect it from the personal tutor and I don't want to find out by phone either. So, I'd rather wait, get all anxious and fidgety and "crazy"( with all the self talking in the mind) and get the paper into my hands with my eyes staring into my marks.

Honestly, I'm really worried this time round. I've never beeeeen this worried bout my exams and the results I'm expecting. I've that strong feeling of getting a very low or near to fail marks for two of my papers. But yet, I pray that the rest of them are 2nd upper or 1st class and coupled with my good Sem 1 results. I'll progressss! Year 2, watch out for me!
But whatever it is, I've surrendered it to God and I'll praise and be thankful to God no matter what.

Added on with all these crazy self talk, and the absence of one for 3 weeks. I've convinced myself to pull out of the situation I'm stuck in. Due to something said to me by someone and the particular world of limitations I have limited myself to on certain issues due to something. Nah, it's not any good to both so why go on..


Another thing I'm really worried about is that I think my sayang's time is coming soon. Every time I look at her, she just seems to appear more and more restless and she rarely smiles anymore. She has her moods as to when she's happy and not. I hope my brother's coming back for hols tmr will cheer her up big time. She used to be so happy and cheerful and full of energy alll the time irregardless of the fact that she just saw us not too long ago. 13 years has gone by, and she's lived nearly double the average life span of a dog. She's finally acting up and showing signs of old age and lifeless-ness.


Besides all that, the brother is arriving KL in 15 hours time! wheeeee =) and i'll end my result frustration in a day's time. The results will half determine my decision about UK.

I've been doing so much things that I don't feel like I'm on holidays yet I'm also enjoying so much that I am just enjoying life and not thinking of things.

when the day was filled with good happenings.
when receiving good or pleasing news/mails.
when silence was a good sign.
when consideration was put to use.
when the timing was perfect.
when something new was learnt.
when being challenged with something so full of drive.
when having the right companion(s)

what more can I say but that the day was perfect and thank God for those two days. and not forgetting today =)




on a side note. It's rather interesting and that I suddenly realised that for 1 whole week, the topic of dating and courtship was raised four times incidentally with different people.


Ponders:

have YOU ever thought of where your life is heading to?
What and why are you living for. Really.
Is YOUR life currently or going to make or contribute to a difference?
Will there be an inspiring part or story of your life journey that you'll proudly tell to your coming generations over and over again without getting bored

Gah. MSN is so annoying.

imagine with all the stupid virus thingi going around sending all those idiotic links stuffs..

and nearly 2 months of not signing in....

TADAAAA - you get bombarded with the same msgs over and over again by gazillion and one times and from diff ppl.



Current agenda : Sabah

Next agenda : Internship!

Why is it, that everytime I find the right or nearly perfect one, There's always that one same thing that puts a barrier with a full stop right through everything.

Second why.

Why is it so easy to pretend all's right anyway.

Maybe it's cause the expectations weren't in existance to begin with. Hmmmm, that's serious.

I hate this part right here. Where I get so indecisive. It's time for the magic to do its work.

On another note, I believe life's fair afterall.

The argument is not that life's unfair. It's the person living the life who aint doing it/thinking right then.

I've no idea if all these make sense. but it's something I'll understand and who cares if you don't!

Toodles!

Oh right! and

a VERY BIG SMOTHERING KISSY THANK YOU to all who wished me and gave me something for my birthday. I enjoyed reading some of them despite mugging for the papers in between.

21. It ain't a biggie at all. =)

partying sessions coming up. after tomorrow for the next three months plus.

oh, the parents suddenly wants me to hold a 21st birthday party. random sial. haha
malas to organise lahh. i'd rather just have a nice gathering with friends in a cosy place.. and let other ppl do the work! HAHA.. nah kidding, but oh well.. after tomorrow only think lah.

a very big hearty thank you once again to you all. lotsa love

I think I've effing come to the point where I'm so gonna fail one paper. My last paper for the semester tomorrow. There goes my frigging first class honours. I think after this exam I'd be glad to even get a second upper or lower the least.. Don't think I did that bad to go any lower i think.. Haha.

Then again, whatever it is. I've surrender it all to God.

Anyway, besides the point. I've got till 12 pm tomorrow to make sure all the cases and sections of the acts I've studied remains in my brain cells somewhere. Here I am succumbing to blogging to frustrate out the frustration. *smack upsidedowninsideout*

So update. I'm contemplating either options.

1. Transfer to the UK campus for the remaining two years.
2. Mobility exchange student for one semester in China campus and the other in UK campus for 2nd year and finish up 3rd year here.
3. Just go for mobility in UK campus for one semester and the rest here.
4. Just reject all the offers and stay here the remaining two years.


Aiyoh. why so hard for me to make decision oneeeeeeee ahh.?? (Cina-slang)

I know it's not simple to be offered a spot in either transfer and mobility. So, despite how tempting option 4 sounds, it'd be such a waste though.

Aiyoyoooo.. How la? (Indian slang)


There update. Just because I need to do something else other than studying and that's not too long and time consuming, addiction possibility like tv.

I've concluded for myself that the more I study, the less I remember. The minimum time spent finishing, the better. wahlau where can one! fail big time.

Sometimes I feel like I'm just existing
I'm not really living
I'm only watching the time slip away
I've forgotten who I am in you
I'm not who I'm meant to be
I'm drifting farther away from my destiny

[Chorus:]
Awaken my heart, awaken my soul
Awaken your power and take control
Awaken the passion to live for you, lord
Awaken me

My soul is longing, my heart is searching
I'm desperate for you to move
Give me a hunger, pull me closer
I'm crying out to you

Awaken my heart, awaken my soul
Awaken your power and take control
Awaken the passion to live for you, lord
Open my eyes so I can see your presence
Dwelling inside
Wake me up, cause I can't live another minute
if I'm not shining your light

Awaken my heart, awaken my soul
Awaken the passion in me
Lord, awaken me to live my destiny
Lord, awaken me and shine your light through me
Lord, awaken me to live my destiny
Lord, awaken me and shine your light through me

[Chorus]
Yeah,Yeah,Yeah


Song : Awaken by Natalie Grant

Sometimes I really do feel like that. And everytime I listen to this song, I feel rather inspired and just lifted up in a certain way.
It's good to know even that, despite my "quiet away from Him" moments, He never fails to still be there. All He's waiting for is for me to make the move!

Isolation.
Disappearance.
Turning around.
Denial.
Running away.


but all it really need or is, is

to once again, set aside a time spent with God, hearing from Him and worshipping Him in a place of solitude.

A place that He can call "ours"

Our hangout spot.