i tend to wonder if what i'm doing is right?
or whether i should even be doing all this?
or why am i even bothered to do some of these things i do?


i wonder if it's worth it.
i wonder if that's the way it should be..
whether it'll turn out the way it is planned to.
whether i'm taking the right steps to all these things i'm doing.
whether it'll turn out fine. just like it is wanted.
i wonder why am i even wondering so much.

sigh.

i'm so not ready.

It has finally gotten to me.

For once in my entire life, i'm actually getting nervous and worried over an exam.
i've never been this nervous. my first hand experience of a nervous breakdown. well, not that i'm going through it, but since it's my first time feeling this, it seems like it.
AS finals starts this monday.
and i'm pretty sure i'm screwed. but..

just because;

i lay it all down to You. for nothing is to big or to small. nothing is impossible. nothing that You cannot handle.
and because i'm taking this step of faith, i'm pretty sure it'll turn out okay in the end.


shit. i told you it's getting to me.

this has got to be the worst year for me, academic wise.
what's worse is i'm slacking one million times more than i usually do.
the drive just isnt there anymore.
i'm having doubts over my choice. i should have really think it over before making the decision.


or maybe, i should just continue to strive, just work for it.
and just get done and over with it.

yup. that's right.